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Nightmares have become a recurring theme in my life.

The past three nights I've had them, along with my habit of not sleeping the night through. Perhaps it's a common occurence that people don't sleep the night through. But I seem to remember being able to go to bed, and not wake up until my alarm sounds. Not any more.

Last night I was privy to two nightmares, which is new. One dealt with betrayal by a loved one, the other with the end of the world... It's not surprising where these nightmares are coming from, at least the images. Pretty standard stuff, or pulled from incidents in my day. What I don't understand is why I'm having them. I'm not in the middle of a breakup, or fight with anyone. My job is fine and secure, roommate tension is non-existent. There's nothing that I'm depressed or consciously anxious about. But there's some kind of dark tornado spinning in my head. And it's not pleasant.

I hope I can settle down soon. Perhaps a little meditation could help. Or more exercise. Or less. If this continues on for more than a week, I may make a doctor's appointment. Not that I think they can point to something and say "That's it!" but they could let me know if there are any imbalances or irregularities in my health.

My days have become a little more delerious. I hate being tired. It really makes me depressed and cranky. Things look much bleaker through the haze of sleep, and normally trivial things can set of nasty reactions. Another wave of sleep is rolling up right now, but it's different. A pressure on my head, slight lightheadedness. In a few days maybe I'll start hallucinating.

Let's see if a good dose of working out, combined with some hard dancing, wears me down sufficiently.