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Apr. 17th, 2001 05:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jchrisobrienI'm leaving a soccor game with my mom, heading through the parking lot. There's lots of straw on the ground and people walking around in costumes. It's Halloween so this makes sense. I see two guys getting into their truck and pulling away in a screech of tires. Immediately I can tell something bad is about to happen. It's the same two assholes who were backstage fucking around during the show I was working on.
I grab my mother's arm and hurry us towards the car.
Just as we get to it their truck round the corner and fishtails into our car. Mom and I just get out of the way. The come pouring out, yelling and screaming. I grab one of them and subdue him, but the other grabs my mom. Standoff.
I scream at him to let her go, and he ignores me, thinking that I'll just back down and do anything to protect her. I bunch my fingers together and gouge out the eye of my captive, screaming that the other eye is next if he doesnt let her go. His face pales, fluid drips from my fingers, headlights from another car race at us full speed like their not going to stop the engire screams....
And I wake up.
Two restless hours turn and tossing at 2:30 in the morning. With the lights on, I dreadfully sink back to sleep
The rest of the day turned out much calmer than my dream, but lack of sleep and a disgusting lunch have taken their toll. I can't maintain a good night's sleep. Anything longer than 4 hours and I wake up, usually from a nightmare, sometimes just normally. This repeats itself 2=3 times a night before my alarm goes off. Perhaps the next time it happens I'll just stay up, watch TV, read, paint. Anything. If I could get away with only needing 4 hours of sleep that would be great.
Juding by how I feel today, I doubt that's the case.
I grab my mother's arm and hurry us towards the car.
Just as we get to it their truck round the corner and fishtails into our car. Mom and I just get out of the way. The come pouring out, yelling and screaming. I grab one of them and subdue him, but the other grabs my mom. Standoff.
I scream at him to let her go, and he ignores me, thinking that I'll just back down and do anything to protect her. I bunch my fingers together and gouge out the eye of my captive, screaming that the other eye is next if he doesnt let her go. His face pales, fluid drips from my fingers, headlights from another car race at us full speed like their not going to stop the engire screams....
And I wake up.
Two restless hours turn and tossing at 2:30 in the morning. With the lights on, I dreadfully sink back to sleep
The rest of the day turned out much calmer than my dream, but lack of sleep and a disgusting lunch have taken their toll. I can't maintain a good night's sleep. Anything longer than 4 hours and I wake up, usually from a nightmare, sometimes just normally. This repeats itself 2=3 times a night before my alarm goes off. Perhaps the next time it happens I'll just stay up, watch TV, read, paint. Anything. If I could get away with only needing 4 hours of sleep that would be great.
Juding by how I feel today, I doubt that's the case.
Judging by how I feel today ...
Date: 2001-04-17 10:12 pm (UTC)Get up, get out of bed, out of the bedroom.
and write.
Then have a glass of water, look at the moon
of of the porch, and sink into that big
overstuffed chair, and know:
There are friends thinking about you, C.
Keeping you safe in their dreams.
Re: Judging by how I feel today ...
Date: 2001-04-18 07:13 am (UTC)Keep up the good work, because the nightmares keep coming...