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[jchrisobrien]

The last two weeks have been very frustrating.  Friendship explosions, horrible dice, not getting things done at work.  Even when I try to get into work on time, I don't succeed.  Thankfully there's not much going on this weekend, because I really can't put up with anymore.  I can barely even muster the courage to type all of this up right now.  I'm doing it anyhow. 

There's a lot of things I wanted to happen.  I wanted my interest returned.  I want to prove that you don't need to be a tool to win a game. I want to succeed.  It' been doing my nut in that none of this is working out, and I"m  tired of beating my face into a brick wall. 

I will go back to the clubs.  If certain people are uncomfortable by that, they can go the fuck home.
I'm not playing any more games with my list.  I'm going to fly to Florida in a few weeks, sit by a pool, drink lots of pina coladas, and not get eaten by fire ants.
I'm going to see some unusual films, walk around a new city, and forget about my life in Boston for a weekend.

I might, at some point, even put down that scalpel that I've been using to cut into myself over and over and over for years. 

Comments

[carta.livejournal.com]

*hug* Inadequate, I know, but there nonetheless. *HUG*

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Hugs are good, but sometimes swift kicks in the ass are better. You may give me either :)

Learning can be painful. If I can learn anything from this then it will be worth it. Don't let people use me. Anytime I roll some bad dice, I should just say relax, and keep rolling. Get to work on time.

The last two are the easiest to put in place. Gotta start somewhere!

[silentq.livejournal.com]

There's a pitcher of sangria with our names on it at Mad Hatter's. :) (our hotel is only 400m away from Hatter's!)

[noize-girl.livejournal.com]

Hatters? Are you visiting Montreal? I met you a couple of time through Tony. When are you visiting? Will you be up for Fantasia?

[silas7.livejournal.com]

We are coming into town July 6-8. Nicole knows our movie schedule better than I right now, and I was going to put another reminder to maybe meet up with Montreal folks for food!

[noize-girl.livejournal.com]

I met Nicole through Tony also. In fact, I've seen her at Fantasia for the last couple of years in various lineups.

Please post your film schedule. I'm just about done mine, so I'll see if we have any similarities. If you're not busy on the Friday night we could go for drinks or even dancing.

Let me know what your plans are.

[silas7.livejournal.com]

You see, no dice are involved there.

I'm going to bring my poi too, in case we have some free time near the park. I meant to use them during COMA, but we didn't leave the house much.

[canongrrl.livejournal.com]

what? are you in montreal on the 6-8th of july?

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Yes, we are going to the Fantasia film festival.

[canongrrl.livejournal.com]

we should do sushi one night then

[silentq.livejournal.com]

Dinner of some sort sounds good, do you have a particular restaurant in mind? I don't think I've ever had sushi whilst in Montreal...

[nepenthedreams]

We probably aren't going now - we couldn't find a reasonably priced hotel up there.

BUT the best sushi place that we had up there was on St. Catherine street, upstairs from a night club. It's called Zen-Ya
http://www.igougo.com/travelcontent/JournalEntryDining.aspx?EntryID=23138

I also liked Kai-Zen but I heard it went downhill. We were last there during C9

[mrhavisham.livejournal.com]

I’ve had a difficult time these last two weeks as well. It could be a Scorpio thing. I think we fair much better in the winter and fall than in the spring and summer

I second this !

[sanguineempathy.livejournal.com]

Most definitely!

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Stupid hot months and fire signs! Autumn is my favorite season. Moody and tempermental? Scorpios? NOOO!

We are also stubborn, and don't know when to give up.

We're also dead sexy (regardless of what other people think).

Mind Eraser

[sanguineempathy.livejournal.com]

*hugs* and good luck decompressing

Re: Mind Eraser

[silas7.livejournal.com]

mmmmmmmm mind eraser.

It hasn't really started yet, but it will begin soon.

[julishka.livejournal.com]

ooo sucko. don't know what the back stories are (and that's fine by me), but hope things turn around for ya.

fwiw, astrologically speaking, things are pretty fucked up at the moment. hang in there fellow scorpio.

*hug*

[silas7.livejournal.com]

I'm hanging on, but I keep stinging myself in the back. I need to stop that. My venom is better used elsewhere. *evil grin*

murph

[flutterby369.livejournal.com]

big ass hugs baby. enjoy a sunset out on the beach for me luv, it has been way too long since i have been to Florida and sit upon the beach and zone out to the Zen of life.

Re: murph

[silas7.livejournal.com]

I won't be at the beach, but I will be at a pool. I will enjoy the hell out of it for you.

thank you.

Re: murph

[flutterby369.livejournal.com]

yes, even a pool in that weather is lovely. just remember your insect repellent luv, they can get a bit nasty. i will say some words upon the next wind for ya luv. deep breath, chin up luv.

[noize-girl.livejournal.com]

Mmmmmm pina coladas are tasty!

Sounds like you need a little séjour somewhere.
Where are you going in Florida?

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Orlando, its a big tournament that I've lost a lot of confidence in going to. Rather than lose a couple of hundred dollars for a plane ticket, I'll go and focus on the non-gaming part of it. I will enjoy as much of it as I can.

[noize-girl.livejournal.com]

I hear the Lake Buenavista area is rather something, since I'm anti-Disney there's never been a huge draw to visit Orlando.

At the very least you'll get some sun. :)

[futurenurselady.livejournal.com]

Sometimes, it feels like people are more dangerous than fire ants. Hang in there, and knock back one of those things with rum and coconut in it for me.

[silas7.livejournal.com]

they certainly can be as annoying as fire ants. I'll knock back two of them for you! (the rest will be for me).

[shnells.livejournal.com]

eeek. now i feel extra bad that i haven't gotten those samosas done! i swear to god you'll get them soon. i haven't done them cos i was too scared of the temptation to eat one of them :/

i'm sorry you're having a rough time of it. i'm around with movies and a sympathetic (if pragmatic) ear if you need it.

[silas7.livejournal.com]

You can bend my ear when you bring the samosas over. We'll find a movie to watch as well. :)

[shnells.livejournal.com]

sounds good to me :) i could try for sunday evening after the belly dance extravaganza?

[silas7.livejournal.com]

I should be around, just give me a call!

[mikespe.livejournal.com]

I know your exact fustration about having to be a tool and playing a tools list. I swore I would never play a "fluffy" list again, yet somehow I keep letting myself play one again and again. At least I no longer expect them to work though.

grrr.

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Sometimes having the moral high ground just isn't enough!

Have you seen the new Empire book yet, or have you gotten rid of your WH stuff?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_asenath_/]

I'm not too great at giving improv advice, but I'll be here for listening. Or if you don't feel like spewing, there are always cartoons! *hugz*