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[jchrisobrien]

The last two weeks have been very frustrating.  Friendship explosions, horrible dice, not getting things done at work.  Even when I try to get into work on time, I don't succeed.  Thankfully there's not much going on this weekend, because I really can't put up with anymore.  I can barely even muster the courage to type all of this up right now.  I'm doing it anyhow. 

There's a lot of things I wanted to happen.  I wanted my interest returned.  I want to prove that you don't need to be a tool to win a game. I want to succeed.  It' been doing my nut in that none of this is working out, and I"m  tired of beating my face into a brick wall. 

I will go back to the clubs.  If certain people are uncomfortable by that, they can go the fuck home.
I'm not playing any more games with my list.  I'm going to fly to Florida in a few weeks, sit by a pool, drink lots of pina coladas, and not get eaten by fire ants.
I'm going to see some unusual films, walk around a new city, and forget about my life in Boston for a weekend.

I might, at some point, even put down that scalpel that I've been using to cut into myself over and over and over for years. 

Comments

[carta.livejournal.com]

*hug* Inadequate, I know, but there nonetheless. *HUG*

[silentq.livejournal.com]

There's a pitcher of sangria with our names on it at Mad Hatter's. :) (our hotel is only 400m away from Hatter's!)

[mrhavisham.livejournal.com]

I’ve had a difficult time these last two weeks as well. It could be a Scorpio thing. I think we fair much better in the winter and fall than in the spring and summer

Mind Eraser

[sanguineempathy.livejournal.com]

*hugs* and good luck decompressing

[julishka.livejournal.com]

ooo sucko. don't know what the back stories are (and that's fine by me), but hope things turn around for ya.

fwiw, astrologically speaking, things are pretty fucked up at the moment. hang in there fellow scorpio.

*hug*

murph

[flutterby369.livejournal.com]

big ass hugs baby. enjoy a sunset out on the beach for me luv, it has been way too long since i have been to Florida and sit upon the beach and zone out to the Zen of life.

[noize-girl.livejournal.com]

Mmmmmm pina coladas are tasty!

Sounds like you need a little séjour somewhere.
Where are you going in Florida?

[futurenurselady.livejournal.com]

Sometimes, it feels like people are more dangerous than fire ants. Hang in there, and knock back one of those things with rum and coconut in it for me.

[shnells.livejournal.com]

eeek. now i feel extra bad that i haven't gotten those samosas done! i swear to god you'll get them soon. i haven't done them cos i was too scared of the temptation to eat one of them :/

i'm sorry you're having a rough time of it. i'm around with movies and a sympathetic (if pragmatic) ear if you need it.

[mikespe.livejournal.com]

I know your exact fustration about having to be a tool and playing a tools list. I swore I would never play a "fluffy" list again, yet somehow I keep letting myself play one again and again. At least I no longer expect them to work though.

grrr.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_asenath_/]

I'm not too great at giving improv advice, but I'll be here for listening. Or if you don't feel like spewing, there are always cartoons! *hugz*