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jchrisobrien) wrote2002-03-17 08:39 pm
jchrisobrien) wrote2002-03-17 08:39 pm
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It's over.
Despite my better instincts, I went down and finished out the tournament. I finally had my cry on
the way down. Recovered in time to park, and go inside. Felt cleansed, empty, a little optimistic.
Then I realized I was playing Dwarves for the third time.
One loss later, I was eating shepherd's pie at the Wharf Rat. Again, the highlight of my day.
I also lost my last game in a spectacular way, failing to hit at ALL multiple times, and losing
three units in the very last round to Chaos Dwarves. The very army I got rid of because I was
doing so poorly at it.
And I can't even find out my overall score, they will have to mail it to me.
My record for the weekend was 1 and 5. My only win against a novice who's played 2 games with
their army. I've been playing for 5 years. It's just like the Jyhad thing, over and over.
It's time to give gaming a break. I can't stand to lose, I can't stomach it.
Anything else I look at or comment on now will just be tainted by my weekend. But I know there is more
more to go wrong this week. And when it does, you will all know, until you grow tired of reading
and remove me. I wouldn't blame you. I even encourage it. I'm sure I'll be writing more on why losing sucks so much, how it ties into my feeling of self worth, but that is for later. Because Imac keyborads suck.
Enough of this crappy keyboard. I'm going to get drunk and pass out. Tomorrow begins the day
long return, to more disappointment.
Despite my better instincts, I went down and finished out the tournament. I finally had my cry on
the way down. Recovered in time to park, and go inside. Felt cleansed, empty, a little optimistic.
Then I realized I was playing Dwarves for the third time.
One loss later, I was eating shepherd's pie at the Wharf Rat. Again, the highlight of my day.
I also lost my last game in a spectacular way, failing to hit at ALL multiple times, and losing
three units in the very last round to Chaos Dwarves. The very army I got rid of because I was
doing so poorly at it.
And I can't even find out my overall score, they will have to mail it to me.
My record for the weekend was 1 and 5. My only win against a novice who's played 2 games with
their army. I've been playing for 5 years. It's just like the Jyhad thing, over and over.
It's time to give gaming a break. I can't stand to lose, I can't stomach it.
Anything else I look at or comment on now will just be tainted by my weekend. But I know there is more
more to go wrong this week. And when it does, you will all know, until you grow tired of reading
and remove me. I wouldn't blame you. I even encourage it. I'm sure I'll be writing more on why losing sucks so much, how it ties into my feeling of self worth, but that is for later. Because Imac keyborads suck.
Enough of this crappy keyboard. I'm going to get drunk and pass out. Tomorrow begins the day
long return, to more disappointment.
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