A beautiful skin hides the rotten fruit

[jchrisobrien]

I drove down to the Cape today (for a tournament). The drive was beautiful in late morning, and the Cape itself was very nice. The rest of the day, not so much. I won my first game but lost the last two due to several mistakes and abysmal dice rolling. I was quietly freaking out and barely held it together long enough to drive home. I'm glad I'm not alone tonight, because I'm too tired to go to Psyforia or a party, and I should be out and around people right now.

I tried very hard to keep my cool, but I failed so much I couldn't do it. Anyone who's ever gamed knows the frustration of rolling poorly. Even when it's just random numbers, you take missing your roles very personally. At least I do.

Time for a drink or two, then sweet sweet sleep.

I want things to change. I'm trying to change them. It's not working out so well.

Comments

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Pool was a no-go, but maybe Venture Bros. this weekend. Keep me posted!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_perihelion_/]

I'm liking this new honesty in journaling. it's probably only me . . . but I like it.

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Talking about the bad and the good? I used to think it makes me look weak, but I look just like everyone else really. Up and down, good and bad. I just talk about it more!

[cutfever103.livejournal.com]

The key to successful change is persistence and desire. I know that you have both. Things will change and when they change, they will change so awesomely that all of these bad feelings and memories will feel a lifetime away. I promise. *hug*

[silas7.livejournal.com]

I guess you would know about things changing awesomely for the better! :)

I'll keep up with the persistence and desire.