A rare meme from Mr Sarcasm

[jchrisobrien]

I have disable IP logging.  Now I want you to do something for me.

Post something anonymously.  Whatever you desire.

A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly.

You know you want to.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

I envy you. I'm very uncomfortable with myself, because I'm not the way I used to be. I used to be very happy with myself, but whenever I get to thinking about it now, I'm missing so much. I feel like I had everything, and then lost most of it. I can't even pick myself up to try to rebuild myself. I know I need to fix my own self, but I feel like I'm missing out on so many experiences and feelings. Like I'm shut out, and it's not a good feeling. No matter what's good, it's always at my core that I'm not good. I'm not who I loved in myself, and it's sad. I wish I could still have the people that used to always be here for me, but I made a bad decision and now they're hardly in my life. Now all I'm left to deal with are things I don't want to, other people put things on me I don't need; I don't get anything from them to help me. It's unprovoked, which just makes it worse. No one ever asks me questions, and I think if someone is asked questions, it gives that person a sense of usefulness and self, because the answers always come from within. It's like no one cares about me. If I had a family, maybe my life would be different, but I really have no one constant. It's buffetting, and it's hard to stay on my feet. I want to feel whatever I feel, but sometimes I get tired of feeling bad. I want to be, feel like I did before when I was so pensive and full of answers. I don't know what's in me anymore. But it doesn't seem like much.

[silas7.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry I missed this. I meant this to be a confessional, not as an ego trip, or a means to fix things. Perhaps you don't need to hear anything in return, that you are releasing pent up anger. That's fine. Empty yourself, fully, then you can see to filling yourself again. I think that everything starts again when you find something in yourself and love it, and nourish it, and let it grow. Start really small.

This can sound pithy and sad. I don't mean it to be. I hope that you find something to grow on.