Bitter determination

[jchrisobrien]

After the events of the past 24 hours I really REALLY want to shoot myself in the head.

Instead, I'm going to do the impossible and get all of my work on track, and become a emotional hermit for about a month.

Woo fucking hoo.

Comments

[canongrrl.livejournal.com]

what happened? and before you become a hermit, we have a photoshoot to schedule!

[silas7.livejournal.com]

I'm not feeling horribly photogenic, but that's part of the idea for the photo shoot.

I think the endorphins being released after the awesome lunch I had are dulling the recent pain. I can still feel it in there. Lots of things piled up in the past day or so, combined with the hellish commute really did a number on me. I can go into more detail over IM or talking sometime.

Thank you for asking.

[sirendipity.livejournal.com]

:(

*hugs*

now we REALLY need to do dinner next week. or at the very least drinks? what about getting together before the club next wednesday?

[silas7.livejournal.com]

I think by next week I will be in a good place for dinner and drinks.
I may not be free next Wednesday, but if that's the best night I could do it.

Hugs are always appreciated. *hugs*

[sirendipity.livejournal.com]

well, i have a shitload of stuff do on wednesday which pretty much knocks out monday and tues...

and thursday i'm supposed to have drinks with my team from akamai.

and friday, i think there's something going on, but i can't remember.

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Wednesday it is then. I will be at your service.

[sirendipity.livejournal.com]

yay!

[eeyrg.livejournal.com]

please. no jokes about guns aimed at heads, eh?

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Hey, this was my edited post. The first one was worse.

But, your point is noted.

[random-girl.livejournal.com]

I'm right there with you; I have "foot in gut" syndrome myself right now over other things. I hope the foot removes itself from your gut and you have an excellent time by yourself. And I appreciate the edited post. I lost a friend last week, no more for a while, okay?

[silas7.livejournal.com]

I suppose we all want a release at one time or another. Maybe not that drastic, but we want things to stop just long enough for us to get our bearings. My little outburst seems extra childish in light of your loss.

I want a break, but I don't see one coming. So I'll have to make my own break. Tough things out. Be my own SO in a way. It's good that I know that people out there care, and could be for me if I let them.

Thank you.

[quislibet.livejournal.com]

Well, good choice, of the two options.

Hope things improve.

[silas7.livejournal.com]

See, my post is bleakly optimistic. I chose the wiser option, and I'm actually kicking ass on my work today (obviously, since I have time to write journal entries). I just seem to reach my snapping more often lately.

Things will improve over time, but it may be a while. I thought I had taken enough time to focus and reassign my priorities. I see that I need more time now.

[atalanta.livejournal.com]

whatever it is, *hug*

[silas7.livejournal.com]

It is a mixture of some relativly minor irritations (traffic, embarassing situations) and major ones (to be discussed later, or not at all). Combined with mechanical failure at work (which mrzero and saidra would especially understand).

Hopefully, it's just one of those days. Like a ten foot pit you fall in in, but can climb quickly out of, with nothing more than a lot of bruises.

*hugs in return*

[scrabonia.livejournal.com]

No shooting please, we have sushi to eat thursday and they hate it when you leave a mess! :)

[franticnights.livejournal.com]

Noooo - no. 1 is not a good idea, but no. 2: I admire your determination :) I hope things are o.k.

For some distractions click here (http://www.glowshop.com/en-gb/front.html), here (http://www.namestatistics.com/) and here (http://www.tasteofwales.com/en/offers/recipes.php). All a bit random, but hey.

x H x

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Glow sticks are always useful.
My real name is #96 in the U.S.
They have cuisine in Wales? ;)

My determination was fueled by a lot of sushi, and some Strongbow. Soon I will sleep, and prepare to face another day.

I'm always encouraged to see your comments, and to follow the adventures of your life. Thank you. *hugs*

[silas7.livejournal.com]

*nestles head against your shoulder*
*hug*

[silentq.livejournal.com]

*hug*
I hope the day turned around for you.
And we should do dinner and a movie sometime, as well. :) It was your turn to pick the movie, wasn't it?

[silas7.livejournal.com]

The day turned around for me, due to getting all the work I need to done, and a little extra. They will soon come to expect miracles from me on a regular basis.

The sushi I got after worked helped tons too. And the Strongbow.

If you can find time in your busy schedule, that would be fine. ;) We can always watch the Boondock Saints over here, we there.

[silentq.livejournal.com]

Sometimes it doesn't pay to be too efficient! ;)
Mmm, sushi and strongbow...
Hey, my schedule's always been busy, shuddup! :) Besides, it sounds like you're all booked up through next week already. :P
*consults calendar* Heh, I'm booking Dec 15 and after right now. :) Dec 15 and 19 are free... okay, that is kind of pathetic, but there's the RotK premiere taking up time too, plus the bike repair course, and xmas parties, and and and... :)

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Since my schedule is more open than most, just float some days by me and I will likely be free.

Just not next Wednesday.

Ahhh, Return of the King.

[silentq.livejournal.com]

Friday, Dec 19th?

[silas7.livejournal.com]

That is a good night. There is no Mage game for me, the night is hereby claimed!

[shnells.livejournal.com]

After the events of the past 24 hours I really REALLY want to shoot myself in the head.


A-fucking-men.

[silas7.livejournal.com]

That doesn't bode well..

[shnells.livejournal.com]

heh. innit.