A beautiful skin hides the rotten fruit

I drove down to the Cape today (for a tournament). The drive was beautiful in late morning, and the Cape itself was very nice. The rest of the day, not so much. I won my first game but lost the last two due to several mistakes and abysmal dice rolling. I was quietly freaking out and barely held it together long enough to drive home. I'm glad I'm not alone tonight, because I'm too tired to go to Psyforia or a party, and I should be out and around people right now.

I tried very hard to keep my cool, but I failed so much I couldn't do it. Anyone who's ever gamed knows the frustration of rolling poorly. Even when it's just random numbers, you take missing your roles very personally. At least I do.

Time for a drink or two, then sweet sweet sleep.

I want things to change. I'm trying to change them. It's not working out so well.