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Praying for myself. these thoughts I try to hide. I have faith in me and hope it will survive. but it's tearing me apart. I can't hear the words by which Iguide. so I must ask again who will carry me. I will not deny that nothing can defend from the helplessness that's cutting deep inside, and I can't prevent the thought that nothings real. Seems I've waited years for this day to end. The strength I need to feel, the pride inside of me, are not there behind the face staring back at me. The anger and the pain of knowing where I am. I have come so far that I cannot pretend. Nothing I can oo that I have not done. No words I can say, no truth left that I can see. So must I let this end, and everything falls apart before I live the life that I have always done. Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong. Something I can hope for, something real that I can see, so nothing falls apart, so that it does not end. I cannot return. I can't start again.

VNV Nation - Rubicon