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jchrisobrien) wrote2002-05-18 03:09 am
jchrisobrien) wrote2002-05-18 03:09 am
Consequences
Not surprisingly, I pissed people off.
Not surprisingly, I lost some friends.
Not surprisingly, some people are too sensitive. Including me.
The post is gone. If you missed, you didn't miss anything worth seeing. If you were offended by it, I apologize. I snapped. If you were hurt by what I said, well you aren't the only one who was hurt. If you think I'm even capable of what I said, well, you don't know me.
I swear, this week will be the death of me. Any happiness I gained at the psytrance night was completely removed by events surronding Episode II. and the subsequent events of tonight. I shouldn't feel threatened or belittled when other cast disparaging remarks on my hobbies and interests. I should just let them have their say, because their opinons don't matter right? They aren't more valid than mine, right? I wish I believed that. But that's the way the world works. Everyone has the freedom to say whatever they want. My only option, if I don't like what is being said, is to get up and move away.
I've been talking about taking vacations, and hermitages. Ideally, I should just disappear. Drop my mailing lists. Shut down my journal, or remove my friends and make things private. Go on a complete retreat from the world, and sort myself out.
That is running from the problems though, and not resolving them.
But you know, fine. Hate me. Be pissed. Do what you have to do.
Not surprisingly, I lost some friends.
Not surprisingly, some people are too sensitive. Including me.
The post is gone. If you missed, you didn't miss anything worth seeing. If you were offended by it, I apologize. I snapped. If you were hurt by what I said, well you aren't the only one who was hurt. If you think I'm even capable of what I said, well, you don't know me.
I swear, this week will be the death of me. Any happiness I gained at the psytrance night was completely removed by events surronding Episode II. and the subsequent events of tonight. I shouldn't feel threatened or belittled when other cast disparaging remarks on my hobbies and interests. I should just let them have their say, because their opinons don't matter right? They aren't more valid than mine, right? I wish I believed that. But that's the way the world works. Everyone has the freedom to say whatever they want. My only option, if I don't like what is being said, is to get up and move away.
I've been talking about taking vacations, and hermitages. Ideally, I should just disappear. Drop my mailing lists. Shut down my journal, or remove my friends and make things private. Go on a complete retreat from the world, and sort myself out.
That is running from the problems though, and not resolving them.
But you know, fine. Hate me. Be pissed. Do what you have to do.
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I don't think there's really any "losing" involved though .. it's just that you've _got_ to realize that an attack on something you like does not necessarily have anything to do with you as a person. I know that some people do go for the "if you like that you must be stupid" attitude, but I don't think our mutual friends and acquaintances are that way.
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I won't even try to defend myself.
Yes, I'd better learn that lesson. Or I will begin to lose people I care about as friends, and it will be my fault.
I still think people shouldn't be as negative as they are. I shouldn't have to be the only responsible one. But I do need to toughen up, and remember it.